Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Yesterday:

$25.60 Fuji Sushi (lunch for two)
$72.14 Whole Foods (shopping for the week?)
$50.59 CVS (shopping for the month?)

Today:
$2.00 bottle of water.
$3.00 snacks in the day
$12.00 Xi'an famous foods (dinner for two)

I am deeply depressed today.  The prospect of continuing to be a biglaw lawyer is starting to wear on me.  Deeply unhappy about this.  The dream job is over.  In, what I believe, is bullshit HR nonsense.  I don't know how I am going to be able to cope with this.  Even if objectively, my job is not something that sounds that unbearable, I am just so deeply disappointed in my job, so deeply disappointed in ending up as a corporate lawyer serving the bad guys, that I don't know what to do with myself?   This disappointment is beginning to consume me.

How do you fix it when you are too demoralized to do anything?  I need to find my will.  I have no discipline and I have no will and it is starting to ruin my life.  

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

call me when you get back. j

ADM said...

weird, this didn't hit my email. will do.