Tuesday, March 08, 2011

7.25 whole + sum lunch (don't ask)
3.83 oikos and gum.



My birthday party was lovely with activities from 5 pm through 4 am, although it is my understanding that I fell asleep sometime around 3 am, after which people messed with me, and after which I woke up at 7 am to release the red wine that was still inside of me, causing my head to spin.  I was informed there are as many neurons in the gut as there are in the brain - I believe this.  I was also informed that I played and sang on the ukulele extensively, but I have no memory of that either.


Work has gotten bad -- the feeling of despair and dread that comes with working in such an office is difficult to deal with.  Yes, all of you stupid assholes, I should be happy to have such a well-paying job, but boy do I hate it.  This is simply not my highest and best use and is deeply bad for my will to live.  I am by no means depressed and I am by no means suicidal or anything like that, but sometimes I just feel so trapped and feel so dissatisfied with where I ended up in a career that I am not all that fazed by the prospect of simply being wiped out by some freak accident. Even though I clearly deeply deeply don't want to die or suffer or anything like that, some part of me always thinks "at least I won't have be a lawyer anymore" and I find comfort in that.  


Call my symptomatic of chronically dissatisfied yuppies or youth.  Or just call me someone who isn't where they belong in life.  

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