I have no other explanation other than laziness. Malaise even. I haven't been firing on all cylinders. I need to build external accountability structures so that I will do this right.
It appears that I am not the self-starter. The dynamo. The do-it-yourself-work-tirelessly-until-success guy. I am just another guy who doesn't like working that much but reallly reallllly hates certain types of works so much that he will run away to do something else. That being said....I will make this happen. It just isn't hard wired into my system.
It will be a fight.
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When I first started directing, I felt like maybe I wasn't a natural leader, but now that I've done it a bunch, I find myself taking charge at other peoples' gatherings/shoots if I don't feel like there's enough leadership going on and even have to pull myself back sometimes. So it's a process.
In other words, next time I visit you, I'm usurping the bonfire.
That's good to know. The main issue now is that I am basically a team of one, so I have to make myself do everything.
Re: the bonfire, they moved out. We no longer have a bonfire yard. We have to go camping and shit to build fires. I am also always going to be better at fire.
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